Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Crazy morning, good appointment

Today was the day, our first meeting with our RE.  The anxiety has been building steadily over the past few days.  Of course the universe decided to have it's fun this morning.  Took my temp this morning and it had jumped up over a degree.  Really body?  Fertility Friend, the site I use to chart my cycles, had a hardware failure that made chart graphics unavailable.  Awesome.  Luckily the issue was resolved and I was able to print my charts.  Then one of the downstairs printers decided to crap out about ten minutes before we are set to leave.  Who gets that wonderful call and has to fix it?  Yep, David.  There was a moment where it looked like I would be going to the appointment alone.  Cue rising anxiety and panic.  He somehow got a temporary fix in place and we left the office at 9:40 for a 9:45 appointment.  Choosing an RE with an office 5 minutes from our work really came in handy.

We walk into the office, give our paperwork to the receptionist, go over a few things, then the fire alarm goes off in a suite down the hall.  Wonderful.  Choosing an RE with an office a block away from the fire station also came in handy.  It was a false alarm and there was no need to evacuate, a win since it's about 7 degrees out today.

Dr. S came out a few moments later and took us back.  Being a crazy researcher the appointment felt more like a review course.  We talked family medical history, my miscarriage, and my crazy cycles.  With no glaring indications of a problem with either Dave or me, Dr. S feels we should move forward with preliminary testing.  That means a sperm analysis and disease panel blood work for Dave, pretty simple tests that can be done within the next week.  I have to get the disease panel blood work as well.  When my period decides to show up is when the real fun begins.  I'll be getting blood work and ultrasound on CD 3 and a HSG between CD6 and 10.  Dr. S was sympathetic to my concerns of pain and anxiety during the HSG (a procedure involving a small tube being inserted through the cervix into the uterus and filling the uterus and tubes with a contrast dye to be able to find any abnormalities or blockages via x-ray) and prescribed a low dose of Valium.

If everything comes back normal he feels we could move on to a medicated cycle, most likely Clomid, due to my fair number of anovulatory cycles in the past 10 months.  Overall, I think Dr. S is going to be a great fit for us.  He was very compassionate and knowledgeable.  He took the time to explain all of our options, answer our questions, and made us both feel very comfortable.  Hopefully my period shows up in the next few days and we can get this show on the road!                

Friday, January 18, 2013

FU troll body

So it seems like my "period" over the weekend wasn't actually my period.  My temperature spiked well into post ovulation range on Wednesday morning.  It has stayed up the past two days so I am calling it.  That "period" was mid cycle bleeding and ovulation most likely occurred on Tuesday.  Awesome considering we had not had sex since before I got sick last week.  Thanks troll body for ensuring no possible chance for this cycle.

Silver lining is we won't have to wait as long for a new cycle to begin for testing.  There is even the possibility for progesterone testing since I will be 7 or 8 DPO at the RE appointment next week.  Again, just have to enjoy the small victories at this point.

One thing that has been incredibly helpful during the past few months is my new job.  If I was still working crazy theatre hours and dealing with all that stress I don't think we could have taken this path.  I am so much happier now.  We've started up a weekly board game and bad movies night with friends, we go wine tasting with friends every few weekends, we go on weekly dates, and we can enjoy lazy Saturday afternoons together.  There has not been a single event with friends we had to decline or Dave had to go to alone because of my stupid schedule.  We're currently starting to plan an all inclusive getaway during the summer, hopefully it will turn into a babymoon :).

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Pleasantly surprised

When we started to get the near the one year mark of TTC back in November I started to get really nervous.  How had it come to this?  Was this the path we really had to go down now in order to get our rainbow?  If my cycles actually normalized and I was ovulating every month, it would have been easy to put off starting the search for an RE.  Unfortunately this is not how the universe works for us.  Of course our company decided to switch insurance companies at the start of the new year.  The only good thing that came out of it was the new insurance did away with any need for referrals.  It's the small things sometimes.

Finally our new cards arrived last Friday.  Monday morning I filled out the information request form for our prospective RE.  More waiting.  This afternoon I got the call.  They had an opening for next Wednesday morning.  Holy crap, this is actually happening.  I will be on CD13 that day so not sure what possibilities remain for any preliminary testing this cycle.  Hopefully my stupid troll body will get it's act together.  

Monday, January 14, 2013

Note to self:

Get a freaking flu shot next year!

Last Monday afternoon I started to feel very off.  My face was burning up while the rest of my body was freezing.  Dave ended up driving me home right after lunch.  By 7pm my temperature was 101.5.  I don't get sick very often, but this year the flu hit me like a semi truck.  Most of Monday night was spent vomiting.  Tuesday was spent coughing and wincing since the previous night's vomiting left my throat feeling like I had drank a gallon of acid.  Wednesday I was able to move to the couch, but continued coughing and trying to will my fever of 101.8 to break.  Dave took me to the doctor Thursday morning and my fever finally broke.  Now armed with wonderful cough syrup laced with codeine I spent most of Thursday sleeping and trying to eat to regain my strength.  Friday saw my fever almost completely gone, but I still worked from home so I could do laundry to prepare for our weekend trip to Baltimore.

We got on the road a bit late since the weather was so crappy.  With Dave driving I had time to lament about the flu most likely ruining our chances of getting pregnant this cycle.  It had struck right in the heart of my fertile window.  Maybe it had delayed ovulation and we could still have a chance?  I got my answer to that question at the next rest stop.  The only saving grace when seeing that much reddish brown blood on the toilet paper was that none had managed to get on my underwear.  Oh well, just another sad 21 day anovulatory chart to add to the pile.  Luckily the rest of the weekend was a blast.  Nothing like good friends, good food, and very good booze to take your mind off the failings of your body.    

Friday, January 4, 2013

New Year, New Outlook

Happy 2013 everyone!  NYE in NYC at Bryant Park Grill was so much fun, we definitely needed a night to let loose.  Paying extra to have the VIP roof access made a huge difference.  There were tons of people on the downstairs dance floor and it was loud as hell.  The rooftop bar was quiet, relaxed, and had fantastic bartenders.  It was the perfect start to a new year that will be most certainly be filled with new experiences, hardships, and hopefully a beautiful rainbow baby.  
Of course after the amazing fun of NYE, both Dave and I got sick.  Blech.  The fun stomach bug had me bed ridden for most of Wednesday while Dave has had a killer head cold for the past two days.  Adding to the fun, it seems I may have ovulated early this cycle.  We still managed to knock out O-2 and O, with the possibility of O+1 tonight, so there is still a chance.  A nagging voice at the back of my head likes to remind me how similar this all is to the last time I ovulated early.  Granted we have better timing this time around and are nowhere near as sick as we were then, but it does still leave me with the happy/scared feeling.

Our new insurance cards should be arriving any day now.  We picked the RE we want to go with, it's a practice that has an office about five minutes from our work.  My hopes, which may be completely off base, is that we can get our preliminary testing done and (barring any serious problems) try to do a few more natural cycles.  Late winter into early spring is going to be crunch time for our current work project.  It will be incredibly stressful and leave us with very little to no time off from work.  Our bosses are very understanding and wonderful when it comes to personal matters, but we are leads on this project and need to be focused.  Fingers crossed that my body has finally regulated itself and gets with the program.