November is the worst part of the year for me, made even worse this year by being benched. We have now been trying to conceive for two years. Two years of hoping, wishing, and heart break. If I had not miscarried, that baby would be turning one this month. We would have a one year old.
I never thought it would come to this point. Everyone always said "oh you'll get pregnant again easily". For many people that is true. Most of the girls I knew from my time on TTCAL have gone on to have their rainbow babies. Yet here my jealous ass sits, wondering if I will ever see a BFP again.
Yesterday marked the start of week #2 on birth control. They make me extremely impatient and overly emotional. I hate feeling like this, but will do almost anything if it will fix my lining issues. It's going to be a fucking long November.